Wow. That was quite a break. Not really sure why I'm writing today, and can't promise I won't go away for a long time again. But hey, I'm here now. Technically, I'm at work now. And ten minutes ago there was a full-on Mariachi band playing the cocktail reception of the wedding that's happening in the hotel right now. It was like Three Amigos - except there were four of them. It was hilariously awesome.
Here's some things that have been on my mind as of late.
1. I have now officially been alive longer then my Mother ever was. It alternately breaks my heart and makes me more determined then ever to keep moving forward with my life.
2. Last night Pixie feel asleep curled next to me in her little bed, her two little hands holding mine. It was truly a moment I hope never to forget. She is so sweet and loving and I can't stand the thought of her growing up.
3. Therapy is one of the best things I have ever done for myself. Hands down. Best.Ever. It helps that I love my therapist. I can't believe the things she has made me realize and feel. If you've ever thought about doing it, I'm telling you - do it.
4. The Beiber obsession continues in our household. Wonderboy was practicing for a "Sing-Off" that was going to happen at recess today. He had the printed lyrics to Never say Never and has been driving us all mental walking around and singing it. Plus, Pixie tells us about four times a day that she is going to marry Justin Beiber. And I may have - MAY have - put one of his songs on my running playlist. cough*ok, I did*cough.
5. By running playlist, I do not mean a list that keeps running continuously. I mean, I have started running. Been doing it for about a month and I have registered for a 5K in May to keep me going. I don't love it all the time, but I was getting bored with my 30 day shred. I had also spent some time talking about it with my Aunt and she convinced me to give it a try. I don't love it every time, and had a particularly hard go yesterday, but I'm up to 2 and 1/4 miles which makes me feel pretty damn great.
6. Going off of those thoughts - I feel really great that I have finally taken control of my dissatisfaction with my body by doing something about it. It took me long enough to get from the whining stage to the actual doing stage, but I'm there now and it's been very positive. (Again, thanks to the therapist for kicking me off my butt.) (Which is hopefully getting smaller!)
Not like everything is all roses and sunshine. For example, our dog had six kidney stones removed two weeks ago. They actually gave them to us in a little jar. Blech.
In three months I will be 40. I wanted, and needed, to get things in a better place before I reached that milestone and I feel like I have begun that process. Here's hoping I can stick to my guns and keep the progress going.
